It\u2019s 10 days that I\u2019m here in India with lots of things settling in now. I came here for healing, to practice with Sharath and to settle my mind. I have persisted, been patient and worked hard not to judge. The biggest issue was judging myself and not being as compassionate as I could. I have a strong faith in this practice as a healing one. The warmth here feels good on my bones.<\/p>\n
The first week is hard for everyone. There is excitement and a continual letting go of any expectations. We are human, we get excited and we are hopeful. We want things to go well and then we are reminded that we are not in control. We just have to do our best everyday. We aim to do our best preparations and move forward.<\/p>\n
Registration is always very exciting and there are lots of discussions around start time. I\u2019m comfortable, tell Sharath that I\u2019m in for 3 months and my times are as good as they can get, meaning there shouldn\u2019t be too much in the way of moving me in the time that I am here.\u00a0\u00a0 It\u2019s very early and the discipline of the practice starts just after New Year’s Day with led primary.<\/p>\n
The consistency with practice is the healer. Each day I have a routine, which includes coffee, a light drip of a hot shower and a yin like session before walking to the Shala. It\u2019s a short walk and I take it briskly as there is a slight chill in the air. I usually bundle up, which feels good. You can\u2019t be attached to anything when you enter that room. You are the \u201cone more\u201d and you go where he nods you to go. Short one, tall one \u2026 I\u2019m medium, so today he said tall one and I went as there were only 5 of us waiting. I was the tallest in that bunch! Of course, he did not miss to mention, \u201cYou are tall one?\u201d Whatever. I rolled out my mat and smiled inside.<\/p>\n
As I explored my final pose and figured I’d learned enough to move on, I went on to back bending. Today with the added poses of intermediate, I question my energy and the quality of my breath. I push up for one and Sharath is standing there. He is busy telling things to others waiting but he\u2019s still at the edge of my mat. Even though back bending is your time, you have to do it without delay, so I go up again and then I am up, all the time working hard not to feel rushed and I still have to drop back on my own. One back, two back and he\u2019s ready for me. I want to be ready so I take some breaths and he nods. He drops me back and on the final one I touch and I walk, he says a little more and I go as I am reminded when I did not keep going and he motioned to me how close I was last year with his thumb and forefinger. I was disappointed then, as I had not trusted myself or could not find the little bit more. This time, I trust, I\u2019m taking charge of that nasagri drishti and I walk and walk and touch my heels. both sides. He\u2019s pleased. No mater what, I am doing the work and it\u2019s all going to be okay.<\/p>\n
These things get you thinking. This practice gets you feeling. How does it keep working for me year after year? We keep learning from our experiences and then we continue to learn to surrender with faith and trust. Yes, It\u2019s going to be okay, cause it has to be no matter what. There are lessons in the method all the time. It’s really all going to be okay.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
It\u2019s 10 days that I\u2019m here in India with lots of things settling in now. I came here for healing, to practice with Sharath and to settle my mind. I have persisted, been patient and worked hard not to judge. The biggest issue was judging myself and not being as compassionate as I could. I … Continue reading It\u2019s All Going to be Okay<\/span>